Thursday, November 12, 2009
A Song Dedication to all my dear frens-Miss You....
9:28 PM
♥ I got It!!!
Was so happy when he said you passed. I actually didnt hear him the first time and said-Sorry? -You passed. -OMG!! Thank You so much!! Kinda stupid response eh...but when he gave me the paper and I walked out, I looked like an ass smiling to myself...was so happy calling up and smsing dear ones to tell them abt it....A imp person was missin as shes abroad....suprisingly, while awaiting to watch the video-met up wif Sec school mate Ron...It was nice meeting someone unexpectedly.......
The TP ppl really know how to get to you....Just when you are on top of the moon, smiling and laughing non-stop, crying tears of joy, they send you to watch a video which shows you gory images...but I guess in a way, it is the right time to show you as its betta to learn early....
Am just so happy and thankful to GOD for being truly gracious to me and blessing you thoroughly!!! Am just still in disbelief tat I have got it and am now wondering-WHAT NOW??
The TP ppl really know how to get to you....Just when you are on top of the moon, smiling and laughing non-stop, crying tears of joy, they send you to watch a video which shows you gory images...but I guess in a way, it is the right time to show you as its betta to learn early....
Am just so happy and thankful to GOD for being truly gracious to me and blessing you thoroughly!!! Am just still in disbelief tat I have got it and am now wondering-WHAT NOW??
9:17 PM
Thursday, November 5, 2009
♥ Driving.....
Right now, I am so very freaking out about it all....the days are totally creeping up .....Yesterday was the most horrible lesson ever-got so much scolding, as if the scoldings from all the lessons got accumulated and were blown off at me yesterday.....haha well, at least today was much better, at least the car didnt have to die 3-4 times...haha I killed the car 3-4 times yesterday...haha........Well, am keepin my fingers crossed.....
Along with that, I hope to get it-I really want it!!! I mean this is something that can please both my parents and me-Please GOD!!!
7:01 PM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
♥ Life's Lessons
While thinking back on the sms that she had sent me, I decided to rethink why did I even type out such an sms to her in the first place. As I reread the sms that I had sent to her, I realised that whatever I had typed was exactly how I was feeling......to tell the truth, I dont feel it a bad thing actually since feeling this way actually made me feel better because this way, I stopped having the childish thought which I have had till now...In a way, I can say that I have matured...I have stopped having expectations and believing because they have led to nothing but disappointment and also because actually believing just lead me being in pain...all the expectations and trust that I had towards them lead to nothing more than them just turning their backs at me, stabbing me in the back, calling me a liar and such on......Thankfully, with the way that I am feeling right now, I can simply say-WADEVA without feeling a tinge of pain my heart .....
Life is said to be a bed of rose,
I have slept on this bed and experienced the most beautiful smells and dreams.
However, I have bleed as well on this same bed of roses,
as I was pierced by the thorns which had always been there but I chose to not look at.
Having gone through both the pain and joy, I feel myself becoming more matured along with armouring myself to prevent myself from being pierced again.
Will the protection that I am taking from being pierced lead me to becoming an unfeeling person towards them? This I do not know and frankly, I cant be bothered because I know that in the end, I am nothing more than a person for them to put the blame on as well as a person for them to ridicule....You laugh at me just because I am a quiet person who does not voice out, I say that its your stupidity to think this way because something that you do not expect can be just a time bomb ticking away before exploding....I have slept on this bed and experienced the most beautiful smells and dreams.
However, I have bleed as well on this same bed of roses,
as I was pierced by the thorns which had always been there but I chose to not look at.
Having gone through both the pain and joy, I feel myself becoming more matured along with armouring myself to prevent myself from being pierced again.
I know myself the best and I know the reason why I choose to take it in myself instead of voicing out, an action which hurts a lot and yet I continue to do it....I realise the reason is simply because I love them and do not want them to be hurt because of me. However, just because I am quiet, I am not an idiot nor a simpleton...I take in all the things that are happening around me and this better helps me to figure out the type of person you are.....
In the end, I find out that even though the word is one whereby you should be feeling comforted, I find myself not being able to think about being there and fitting in with one and all....Instead, I feel like an outsider and I suppose-that is how I have been treated by them....Well, WHATEVER.....it is not like I am ever going to living there.........
Sometimes, I feel like whether I even want to here, where I am.....Well, if things go wrong with 'Him' as well, I guess I would really consider going off to a place where I can be free of all these things, though it would mean leaving my life behind.....
Words such as 'family' and phrases such as 'helping each other out in times of need' are nothing more than a few letters put together=MEANINGLESS!
7:13 PM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
♥ Missing Home....
Wow-Cant believe that Bhaiya ald left for India...suprisingly, I did not shed a tear-I guess the reason is that I am holding onto the believe that he is going to be back in a jiffy, say a week or two.
I really miss India-it seems like everyone but me is going back....I mean-yea I had went there for a few days but come on, going back after 5 years...a few days isnt sufficient at all......
I keep remembering my family....Come to think about it, I guess I have the closest attachment to India Buas family of all, from dads side that is.....I seriously love this family of 5:
-Phufa and the sarcastic things that he says that just cracked us up sumtimes...
-Indu Bua and the way she wud be laughin at lil things when we were going out and the way she is always there......
-Monu Bhaiya~fav~...everything abt him from top to toe is loved by me!!! He is jus my dearest Bhaiya!!!
-Sonu Bhaiya~buddy~...apparently, my slacker buddy has currentl left n gone to India, it always felt nice when he wud sweep n I moped, he helped me to realise a dream of mine=sum1 helping me wif the housework
-Bittu Bhaiya~the cool dude~haha, BB is just CUTE!! Seriously...compared to the prev visit, he has totally grown up tis time and it always feels very nice chatting with him online...
I really miss India-it seems like everyone but me is going back....I mean-yea I had went there for a few days but come on, going back after 5 years...a few days isnt sufficient at all......
I keep remembering my family....Come to think about it, I guess I have the closest attachment to India Buas family of all, from dads side that is.....I seriously love this family of 5:
-Phufa and the sarcastic things that he says that just cracked us up sumtimes...
-Indu Bua and the way she wud be laughin at lil things when we were going out and the way she is always there......
-Monu Bhaiya~fav~...everything abt him from top to toe is loved by me!!! He is jus my dearest Bhaiya!!!
-Sonu Bhaiya~buddy~...apparently, my slacker buddy has currentl left n gone to India, it always felt nice when he wud sweep n I moped, he helped me to realise a dream of mine=sum1 helping me wif the housework
-Bittu Bhaiya~the cool dude~haha, BB is just CUTE!! Seriously...compared to the prev visit, he has totally grown up tis time and it always feels very nice chatting with him online...
9:15 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
♥ He is Gg
I cant believe that Cuz is gg back to India-NOOOO!!!! It is gonna be such a diff feeling without our older bro ard. I hated myself for the weak form that took over me when I heard the news-the form whereby I was constantly on the verge of tears and I am really thankful for the words that he said upon coming back home..I am really hoping he comes back damn soon and am keeping my fingers crossed for tom....I also hope that with whats gonna happen, history would not repeat itself and I pray that nothing like the two prev ones happen wif this one..
This year is really going bad......
12:22 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
♥ Mehndi For Sheetal Di
Recently, had done mehndi for Sheetal Didi as she prepared to fast for Karwa Chauth. Jus got the pics from here....... Haha, I feel such an beginner:-
I messed up on her left leg as that was when Shushil was asking me to rush.....Haha...sucky eh...but personally, I like how I did for her right leg....
I messed up on her left leg as that was when Shushil was asking me to rush.....Haha...sucky eh...but personally, I like how I did for her right leg....Labels: Mehndi Design
9:41 PM
